V for vetty before PoP Quiz

who googles Alexandra Kosteniuk ?
I do ..
and about my death ??
its august 11 ,monday ,2059 ...
which is obba wrong , cuz i will be flying away in 2085 !!

this one is a beautiful poem , thanx to Ng for telling me :

If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

--Rudyard Kipling

• Its not what you are inside , its what you do that defines you

from the only BATMAN comics i have read ( not watched )

Scilence

It just feels sometimes , what can silence mean , though some say there is a science to it .
Sometimes , one feels silence also has feelings attached to them ....so does it say something ? oO , is it context sensitive ?
Well at times it speaks volumes , and you appreciate the person is saying so much , sometimes you feels bad about the whole silence issue ...
but i got another feeling about silence ...
this one , it just says nothing at all , its feelingless , cold , ' don't give a damn about it ..' feeling , and i sometime feel good about it and sometimes bad

project ,Rkk , summer , toil .....

This is an undated peice of text written sometime ... but i wanted to acknowledge one of the influencial,inspiring,respectable people in my life .Professor R.Kalyan Krishnan,CSE,IIT Madras .I saw it after having possibly a last proper chat with him today.

There was a strong will in three of us to do something apart from the
regular academics.To learn something and apply it. Fortunately, Prof. RKK
saw our enthusiasm and directed us to focus our atttention on some small
tasks. Initially, he gave us the overview of the project. We use to meet him everyday in morning hours of the day and he use to tell
us about different problems and told us to think about it .We then had to
think about the issues involved in the problem and how we can handle it.
The Professor use to give us tasks relating to things which we will be
dealing later in the project.By regularly listening to him and his varied
ideas we developed to think similarly. He taught us ,by his unique way, how to approach a problem and think about
all possible situations .How can a small issue later on can make things
difficult.The things which ,he told us daily to do ,made sense later in the summer
when we were working rigrously on the project as they were not some chunks
of information but a continuous stream of information.During , the daily meetings,many useful ideas were discussed . We learned
there is a difference between a brilliant idea which may get flopped
sometimes ,but a simple idea which may work almost always.There may be
something good ,but how feasible it is to implement also matters.To work efficiently, we had to understand the project requirements.

PiComposition

Just another night while i sit in hostel room after long hours in the lab .
Just came across this picture , which was sent across by my friend .It was taken by an amateur photographer .
Its quiet interesting in all the sense i know something about photography (or may be little apart from the shutter speed and exposure time and applying them).
It is fantastic as it covers all the three ... land (synonymously boat) , water and sky.
Its beautiful in the sense that it depicts the right time of the day . The land is darker and then there is light and then there is darkness again in the upper dungeons . The presence of a man gives an even greater insight connecting the mean to the superlative(the land to the sky).
The changing color of water as darkness eats the other part of sea gives it another dimension.
Just looking at the top portion of the man you can notice that there is a blurred light at one part and sharp light just on the other . It just looks as if mind has filtered out wisdom from knowledge .
Another interpretation , it represents a lone person boldly rowing with hope when he see' s a dim shimmer at some endless end .
Thats just my imagination as i thought of writing a picture composition after i gave my board examination long back !
Just make me think , that if it is so beautiful after on a digital camera ,
it would be fantabulous if taken from an analog one , as one can't catch the
beauty of analog world from a digital world with perfection

Memorable Loner Journeys

While doing a summer project , i got my tickets booked from "delhi to chennai" a month before i left chennai for home.I realised its an evening flight from delhi so , i will goto delhi ,that morning by lucknow mail , and then leave for chennai in the evening after meeting my friends etc.
So , the day ,night of which i was supposed to leave from lucknow(where i live) to leave for New Delhi, i watched helluva Vh1 and channel [V] listening to songs, and din't sleep .
Next morning i woke up at 1o in morning , i just had a look at the air ticket and it said 0400 hrs.It just struck that flight must be in the morning as time is in hundred hours , rather in the evening .I would be reaching Delhi at 0700 , and fight would be reaching chennai 0630 hrs .I dint even brush and rushed to take Rajdhani Express ticket at the railway station .That day i realised Lucknow Railway station is so huge and has four ticket counters and i visited all four of them in a sprint .Finally he says come at 1400 hrs , you might get one .I waited there in hunger and anxiety for the ticket .Meanwhile my father came to station to take care of things and i rushed home to pack my stuff and fresh and all . Finally , got in the train and i coudn't properly sleep in the chair car .Got down at NDRL Station,in the night at 23:15. Went to Mayuur Vihar to friend's place .Started for Local AirPort at 0200 hrs,which is at the other extreme of Delhi , and still got stuck in a traffic jam of trucks at night ,but finally made it to the station .
Reached chennai at 0630 , reached IIT at 0730 ,and attended A slot @ 0800 !! .The trip was awesome ,though i couldn't meet any of my freinds or relative in delhi, had adrenaline pumpng for all the night .

Once i just decide to go home from New Delhi at the weekend . Ihad not much money with me and i went to NDRL station and got tickets after staniding in a long difficult queue . I got a general ticket as i knew , the TT will later arrange for a seat in the train, coz thats how things go in Gomti Express . It was a huge rush that day and i was travelling in general for the first time so i din't have a clue as to what was supposed to be done .I just got in .I kept rs 250 in my wallet and the rest 400 in my front pocket of jeans with the ticket as i thought if the pick -pocketer steals my wallet , i will be safe .
But in that madness of crowd to get a seat and all , i lost track of myself and someone stole my money and tickets from my front pocket and i had only my wallet left with me .I stood aghast as i never expected this thing to happen.The train had started and i could not even get off. It felt i made a fool of myself by making a choice of going home.
There was a huge penalty for ticketless passengers as obvious , and i was scared to death .
People suggested me to get off at Aligarh station and take the next train and boys told me they can help with my luggage and i shoud get off the other side of track so the TT at station does not tnotice me .They looked skeptic and i just thought ow to tackle . I then decide to stay on board rather trusting the strangers .
I took Lord's name and just sat near the toilet as it was all stuffed .Luckily nobody came to ceck the train bogie as it was weekend ad crowd was huge .The train was late and i stood thire for bloody eight hours without even drinking water as i had not enough money to buy waterbottle as i might have to pay TT something .I was just thinking i can't even make the genuine excuse of loosing mooney and ticket as every person caught would make it .
Then finally Kanpur came and i got off thier as there is a securit check between kanpur and lucknow .
I walked off the backdoor from the station.Took a bus for lucknow from there and reached home at around 0100 hrs in morning .
I had no mobile to inform my parents in what shit i got into , no money to pay the penalty ,or even to drink water .

There are few more , may be i post it sometimes later ...though i know no one cares reading them :/

Now i do long journeys from chenaai to hometown , that things remain pretty predictable and spice is not there

Life ...

This is one of those things i feel like sharing about.
Is Life all about degrees you have , and from which prestigious university or company you are at?
Is it more about things you care of rather than about people in general. A doctor who helps say 10 persons to live life again as is known in a small region of say 10km. radius or a mathetech who the world knows is better for his some theory.
Life seems shit now that its all about "money" and "time" and no more about individuals ,persons , lives .development everywhere but for WHAT? ever rising crime ,global warming , women assaults ,nationwide strifes !
Freedom for all , my foot ... everyone grounded by their bosses.Freedom for women, they've been chased down worst by this world ever in history.
Everyone tries to be someone he is not .May be Hendrix , Shakira ,Einstein . I say , let the chips fall , let us all evolve to be better humans.
Were we better in the pre industrial era ? ok , we had problems ,but they were far less in magnitude and gravity than what we have created now . Point is we had lesser desire , rightly said by Mahatma Gandhi (though i don't consider him a mahatma ) , there is enough for every man's need but not for every man's greed
Is it competition that we wanted ?? "cut throat " , "professionalism" etc.
Winning by hook or by crook ? Is this what our society preaches now , as we have burried our own value system ,and adopted the "Just Do It" philosophy of the west .
All these shows like "The Apprentice" etc are excellent.. about how best one can be ? but for what ? to make his life worst !!
Work for 24x7 for 11 months an year and take a month break(if given ) to enjoy life. Are we machines ? huh !
may be we are turning to be better machines and worst humans.( i wonder what we are) .
Come to techie world , What are we indians producing :: IT professionals gimme a break , or just n thousand working computer heads . Can we be better ?? or were we to produce intellectuals , thinkers ,creative minds , poets ,and literature pandits
Whats the education system giving at schools? --cramming ability to students than creative thinking . a study of top schools of Indian metros was done and report stated the best grade four student scored as much as an average performer of grade three of China .
What are we runnng after , doing more than we an handle .Students all over doping and smoking away life under stress or may be coz it looks cool to do some sh** like that.
Everyone is more self obsessed than ever .Everyone interested in other's life more than his for a better reason than i can give .
For once i think , battle of Troy was over a stupid issue , but i think fighting for love is a better reason than for a piece of land or worldly treasure. As caring individual for intrinsic value is much better than for money/other motive .
Ask yourself , is this the world we want ? or we are creating our own pits .
though i sound lika sh**y luser above to many but this is what i feel in a chilly night of dec 31st ,2007 when i m travelling to chennai alone in the middle of nowhere .